I Kan't SpellSleep Last night you were gone. Lately we haven't been very close. We used to be closer. I would search for your hand in the night. Out of anxiety to make sure you were real. Because you once gave me All I ever wanted or needed. A home. A smile. Love. Last night you were gone. And although dimmer. That light still burned in my soul. I wanted to find my comfort and love. I wanted to find the anchor That kept my ship at port during a storm. Instead our bed was empty. Quiet. Cold. All too often we find ourselves vacant. There is no warm light. All too often we take for granted Something as simple as presence. I took too much for granted with you. I want you to come home. I want you to know you are loved. I want to know you are sleeping well. Farther On This is a lynch pin song for me. One that I usually take for granted. To me it represents the idea of growing older with hope. It has a childish sense of understanding of what is happening to him. It seems to be missing a major verse at the end as it eludes to the traveler that has now started to travel. It takes from his major themes of Angels and photographs dancing around nostalgia. It also borrows from the underlying theme of this album - which is nuclear proliferation - I know right? But Jackson was pretty passionate about that topic after 3 mile island happened during this time period. It has a brilliant chorus singing chord over David Lindsey's slide guitar which make the song warmer than it should be. Lindley is really the creator of this song. "Farther On"
In my early years I hid my tears
And passed my days alone Adrift on an ocean of loneliness My dreams like nets were thrown To catch the love that I'd heard of In books and films and songs Now there's a world of illusion and fantasy In the place where the real world belongs Still I look for the beauty in songs To fill my head and lead me on Though my dreams have come up torn and empty As many times as love has come and gone To those gentle ones my memory runs To the laughter we shared at the meals I filled their kitchens and living rooms With my schemes and my broken wheels It was never clear how far or near The gates to my citadel lay They were cutting from stone some dreams of their own But they listened to mine anyway I'm not sure what I'm trying to say It could be I've lost my way Though I keep a watch over the distance Heaven's no closer than it was yesterday And the angels are older They know not to wait up for the sun They look over my shoulder At the maps and the drawings of the journey I've begun Now the distance leads me farther on Though the reasons I once had are gone I keep thinking I'll find what I'm looking for In the sand beneath the dawn But the angels are older They can see that the sun's setting fast They look over my shoulder At the vision of paradise contained in the light of the past And they lay down behind me To sleep beside the road till the morning has come Where they know they will find me With my maps and my faith in the distance Moving farther on Fountain Of Sorrow lyrics Now you may be saying - this is the saddest of the sad bastard songs every written based on the title... but it's not. It's about missing someone. It's about remembering the good and the bad of someone and then letting go - peacefully and happily. You will have to do this in your life - 5-10x over. "Fountain Of Sorrow"
Looking through some photographs I found inside a drawer
I was taken by a photograph of you There were one or two I know that you would have liked a little more But they didn't show your spirit quite as true You were turning 'round to see who was behind you And I took your childish laughter by surprise And at the moment that my camera happened to find you There was just a trace of sorrow in your eyes Now the things that I remember seem so distant and so small Though it hasn't really been that long a time What I was seeing wasn't what was happening at all Although for a while, our path did seem to climb But when you see through love's illusions, there lies the danger And your perfect lover just looks like a perfect fool So you go running off in search of a perfect stranger While the loneliness seems to spring from your life Like a fountain from a pool Fountain of sorrow, fountain of light You've known that hollow sound of your own steps in flight You've had to hide sometimes, but now you're all right And it's good to see your smiling face tonight Now for you and me it may not be that hard to reach our dreams But that magic feeling never seems to last And while the future's there for anyone to change, still you know it's seems It would be easier sometimes to change the past I'm just one or two years and a couple of changes behind you In my lessons at love's pain and heartache school Where if you feel too free and you need something to remind you There's this loneliness springing up from your life Like a fountain from a pool Fountain of sorrow, fountain of light You've known that hollow sound of your own steps in flight You've had to hide sometimes but now you're all right And it's good to see your smiling face tonight Fountain of sorrow, fountain of light You've known that hollow sound of your own steps in flight You've had to struggle, you've had to fight To keep understanding and compassion in sight You could be laughing at me, you've got the right But you go on smiling so clear and so bright Lyrics for you both - I thought I would take November and paste in some of my favorite lyrics. One of the best things my parents ever did for me was involve me in music. Your Grandmother Camilla listened to Jackson Browne, The Eagles, and Fleetwood Mac. Your Grandfather R.C. listened to Bruce Springsteen and lots and lots of oldies from the early 60s and late 50s. We had radio stations back then that were really themed - and there was an oldies station called WQSR that he would always put on. My Grandfather - Rufus Balban - who is spent lots of time with during the summers from when I was 6-11 listened to a ton of country. Old country too - Merle, Conway, and Johnny. Anyway - I thought I would post some lyrics for you - you wont like them until you get older or until you fall in love and have your heart broken. But music is your best friend sometimes. Trust me - you'll need it at as an extension of your angst... which oddly you will carry with you until your 30s. I figured I would post the 4 songs from favorite "side" of an album. I'll explain what is to you some day - so to lead off over the next 4 days - here is Late for the Sky by the incomparable Jackson Browne. According to your Grandmother Loretta - he was a bit of a womanizer and misogynist (and he kinda was) but he still wrote some pretty damn good lyrics in the 70s. Enjoy - use at your own risk - "Late For The Sky"
The words had all been spoken
And somehow the feeling still wasn't right And still we continued on through the night Tracing our steps from the beginning Until they vanished into the air Trying to understand how our lives has led us there Looking hard into your eyes There was nobody I'd ever known Such an empty surprise to feel so alone Now for me some words come easy But I know that they don't mean that much Compared with the things that are said when lovers touch You never knew what I loved in you I don't know what you loved in me Maybe the picture of somebody you were hoping I might be Awake again I can't pretend and I know I'm alone And close to the end of the feeling we've known How long have I been sleeping How long have I been drifting alone through the night How long have I been dreaming I could make it right If I closed my eyes and tried with all my might To be the one you need Awake again I can't pretend and I know I'm alone And close to the end of the feeling we've known How long have I been sleeping How long have I been drifting alone through the night How long have I been running for that morning flight Through the whispered promises and the changing light Of the bed where we both lie Late for the sky | Favorites List Pandora Song List Amazon Wish List Reading Revolutionary Wealth - Tofflers Brian Jones Things Making Me Smile The City Newness Listening - [out of 5] Benjy Ferree - 4.8 The Thermals 3.1 David Gray 3.8 Quote(S) Like the guy with the beard? 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