Trained
I feel like my brain and soul have been trained to be unhappy. My natural disposition is to seek self destruction and pain - my inability to feel happiness is becoming much more aware. I may have ruined my chi and balance for life - but on top of that there still may be time to be free - to be happy on some level. I just don’t know if it’s me or if it’s what I’ve chosen as my punishment for something I’ve never done.
