Wednesday, January 19, 2022
I check
I’ve lost someone a few times
I’ve lost people many times
Some take days
Some hours
Some never leave
I’ve never been glad to be rid
I’ve never banished or left
I’ve faded
I’ve become sharp
I’ve moved
I’ve been openly unavailable
The check
The routine
Even together
The check the routine
Apart
To me -
They - to me
Openly unavailable
Sharp to the heart
Faded to the night
Banished to someone else’s regret
Glad to be held to fray
Hours left
Days pass
Memories etch unto slate
Scrape and all
You lose people
Losing someone is not
Me
They
They - me
Thursday, January 13, 2022
Quotes
A dream itself is but a shadow - Shakespeare
You learn a lot from people. Just not what you want sometimes.
Sunday, January 09, 2022
Not a one
Not a sad song
Not a singular memory
Not one moment
I never thought I’d live a life of such mediocrity
Of languish mixed with wailing
Nobody mourns us
Both of us just want to be something else
And happy is something else
Happy is love
Happy is to search for that
While respecting what we’ve built
I’m a martyr
I’m a sad soul
You’re a bull
You live with or without me
With or without apologies
You’ll do what you need
To do what you want
I’ll hold the bucket
And stand
And be happy to see it filled
Overcome
Tuesday, January 04, 2022
I
Write poems no one reads
Recommend songs no one listens to
Find books that move me
That are time pieces to when they next speak
Movies to watch
Dances to dance
Kisses to have
All awash in the great tide of memory
All rusted dried out fleeting fingers
Never finding hands to hold
Sunday, January 02, 2022
I remember
… when my idiot father tried to convince people that someone tried to kill a poor moron fraud from Rosedale for something he overheard in a meeting.
It was literally the biggest dumbest lie of my entire childhood and I believed it because he was my father.
The rest of his life he believed it. It killed him like the moron he was. Die or rest or whatever in peace you fucking moron. And that’s the send off you deserve for the dumb shit you used to think and subject us to.
I wish you rot for being a coward of a man. You were kind sometimes but mostly you were absolutely insane. I curse you for this curse - I curse you for whatever I feel. People like us shouldn’t do that. You cowardly piece of shit.