Thursday, November 30, 2023
Idea
Mob that deals in cheap lamb based on % of fast food shops that serves lamb - but use it as an extension of the American skim - everyone finds an underbelly to scam people
Sunday, November 26, 2023
Tend to
That which you know
Comes to an end
With all the effort
You’re still
Nothing but a footnote of a
Footnote
Of a footnote
No legacy finds
The coward
Tuesday, November 21, 2023
Dirty dancing
When I was in 3rd grade
I paid a girl named Crystal
$20 for a tape recording
Of dirty dancing
And I had never seen
The movie
I was just lonely
Tuesday, November 07, 2023
Smart
When people tell me I’m smart - a bunch of things run through my head
1. This person feels sorry for me and is playcating me in some way
2. This person is that much dumber than me to think I’m smart
3. They’re smart enough to know how to manipulate dumb people and think I’m dumb - so they use flattery like you would on a despot rambling in the street that won’t leave you alone.
3. They’re being sincere
The reactions btw - happen in this order.
Psychosis is real.
All the reason you'll ever need
My daughter wrote me a letter last night. She was crying in her room and didn't want to tell me about what made her upset. So instead she wrote me a letter.
To paraphrase - she didn't want me to smoke any more or chew tobacco. She didn't want me to die. It makes her sad when I do it and she begged me to stop.
Is there any reason in the world greater than that? Is there anything you can say to that? No.
There's nothing to do but quit.
And that's what is happening now. Day 3.
Saturday, November 04, 2023
Notes
The wizard
The warrior
The explorer
The scientist
The doctor
The coward
The missing piece
—-
I watched a video
Of myself the other day
And it was cringe worthy
That will be your last cigarette and last dip - ever.
I’ve had enough.
No more phone tv
No more gambling - it’s a waste of time
You better change now because it feels already too late
Do it for the ones you love and love you
