Personality
I think I need to understand that I’m a bit stupid. I’m not stupid mentally - I’m stupid socially. I’m a walking klutz. I offend people. I’m incapable of being gracious or excited without being either crude or arrogant.
I hope I can remember that / professionally this almost works. I have some talent or experience. I know how to survive. In social places I need to remember to be quiet. Just shut up. Learn to be pleasant and complimentary instead of an attention whore who thinks he’s smarter than everyone else and also annoyingly insecure about not being liked.
Be a man. Grow the fuck up.
I also never own up to anything. I’m always making excuses and lying about things that I don’t need to lie about - I’m also lying to myself all the time.
I have a lot of work to do.
Lying eyes
… by the eagles must be the worst song ever when you actually live the lyrics.
