So yeah..I figured two months left...I might want to start looking for a profession when I get back...since programming is never something I want to do fpr an extended period of time...and teaching is hardly my cup of tea...I was thinking of maybe just being a laborer for a while...I don't think there are enough hard core guys out there multi-tasking you know like carrying dry-wall during the day and making music at night or building houses with Mexicans down in Columbia at day and hacking computers at night...that seems real appealing to me right now...because well...shit I dont really have anything that I'm good at that I wouldn't have to lie to get into in the first place...now that I think about it...I have told at least one little lie on every job interview I have ever been on...all the way from "sure I can do that" to "yeah...I've done that..pssh..please that's easy" and you know what I've never really done shit...I think that's why I have a like a 1 year to 6 month cap on every job I've ever done...I mean i've learned some stuff and done some interesting things but if someone came to me with a real problem the only tool I've really acquired is problem solving using excuses and as much procastation allowed by ignorant bosses...I know that sounds sad...but I'm looking back and seeing a very strange empty void...where my career began and knowing that makes me want to really focus on something...I love the idea of changing education...maybe because that's what my father has always talked about...I did develop one thing in the realm of education once that was pretty cool...but it never got birthed...i've been thinking about it more and more lately and I have an algorithm to it now...one that actually works..it's based on the median axis always progressing at a constant rate...blah blah blah...how the hell would you know you cant even see the graph...maybe ill post it later...but yeah...that's what I love...it's the only time I feel alive is when I talk about the actual way people learn and how to improve it...it's so raw now..it's busting and everyone is trying to get their hands on it...but they are doing it the wrong way...all these things like data mining, CRM and 360 communication are useless to those antiquted masses...I mean honestly can you say Miriam in HR really using the new data mining search engine efficiently...well you know what... I can teach her!...and I know how to teach her to do other things...maybe in a different sector of the company...maybe there won't be sectors anymore...that's the dream isn't it...everyone able to do almost any non-specified task...that's the beauty of technology and education...that's the gleam that drips down into my head and makes me excited...that's everything it's supposed to be...and that's my mission...that's my goal...it's the only thing that gets me up...my odd love of technology and learning...i'm gonna fix my stupid website now!
