Bret Fall Down.....
You ever walk around all night saying things like "Snap and Fresh" because you forgot exactly what
was said that was so funny. So the funny thing mutates into something else. And that becomes your way of dealing with situations and people because you are way too gone to make any sort of real judgement about them. I'm sobering up now. I was a needin to get hemmed to let out some anxiety about test results tomorrow. Luckily I get them via the phone so I can have an automatic breakdown as opposed to some sort of abtrusive doctor's office breakdown. I think it's gonna be ok though. I had a dream last night that had a lot of things in it telling me it was gonna be solid. That may have been my brian's way of dealing with it, but I think in some way it was my brains way of saying, "Next time just ask me and not a doctor. You're fine". Oh for you folks who don't know or whatever, and it's not a vinarial disease or anything like that, I have some plumbing messed up somewhere and apparently the stuff in my veins likes to find it's way into our sewer system if you know what I mean. Maybe you don't but that's about as comfortable as I feel talking about it. Some girl emailed me today asking me if I had a disease. She was scared. I didn't blame her. I consoled her and she was still skeptical...and so she should have been...I mean...hell I aint a choire boy anymore. And then I got scared and asked her if she had a disease, but it was so long ago that I would have found out by now anyway. Bad topic...
So yeah, tomorrow I do that....look for a place to live, hit up a bar for the game 7, let me know if you're down...Damn CUBS tonight...that guy (some jackhole interfered with a ball) has to be the most hated man in chicago since...well I don't know chicago but since Laimbere maybe. I was thinking Hull Street with the shuffle board and no girls in black pants ordering vodka tonics from guys with gel in the hair who pour guniness at a breakneck speed. You know that kinda place. I was also thinking that maybe if the test results are bad I won't tell anyone, anyone I don't like anyway. I don't want pity or anything if they're bad. And I'm actually sorry I brought it up in the first place. I mean...it's really lame to do that...anyway...what else...gotta do the job thing and keep on keepin on with it...I mean...gotta keep on pushin the envelopes around come up with new strategies...i mean if HR is this bad with me applying for webmaster jobs and I'm not getting feedback on 90% of stuff like that...then maybe I'll just step it up and find the VP's and come straight out with want I want to do...you never know I may turn somebody on and that might keep me here...I mean nothing really bad could come of it...but I'll probably give that til' the weekend...maybe my resume for something good is on someone's desk and me mailing them would piss them off...I could honestly use a little counseling there...if you have any ideas on how to handle the cold shoulder let me know...I've never really been in this positon before...I mean I've never really looked for work or been real picky about what I do outside of technology....so ifyou ahve any ideas let me know....SNAP AND FRESH!
.....Now
