Slide Away
Song lyrics and the rest of it. It's all just nonsense really. It's all cat chasing tail type nonsense. It's an expression of a feeling that failed to be captured in a glimpse and what have we left beyond words that aren't ours? We have emotions that aren't ours either.
I don't feel sorry for anyone just yet. I don't actually know what to feel right now. I know when I'm near her I'm happier than I've been in a long time. I know that I can just stare at her for hours and not say anything and her beauty mouths all the words that I need. I also know that she's not mine. I also know that I'm a rather hard one to tame. If I spend more time with her I'll fall in love. And there where will I be. Like a man without a country. Stuck on a desert island waiting for her lifeboat to come back and visit when convenient. I'm not going to back off. But, I'm not going to escalate anything either. I'm a little confused but not in a bad way.
I've already sailed seas of wonderment. To be there again would be wonderful, but to simply know that they still exist and I can man a vessel capable enough to traverse them makes me just as content.
How do you peal back from something you so passionately long for? How do you hold fire at arms reach while standing inside a grass hut? Move the wrong way and you'll burn it down.
Lessons learned are always forgotten in the face of that you yearn for. It's beautiful really.