Dreams
I keep having these really strange dreams where all I am doing is moving in slow motion. I also have these dreams where the things that I know, that no one else knows are now very very popular.
The slow motion thing is kind of the weirdest because I'm almost awake when I am dreaming it. For example: I had this dream where I was probably 17 again and all my cousins or little kids or someone who I felt sort of attached to were at my house. Apparently I told them that I was really drunk and that I couldn't go outside and play football. Eventually I tried to and I kept falling down and wobbling and not being able to keep my eyes open. And then in the middle of that we were on a dock somewhere and all these valuable things kept falling out of my pockets and I was moving in such slow motion that I couldn't stop them from sinking into the ocean and I lost everything. It was really a disturbing dream.
Then I also keep having these dreams where everything I love and hold dear is now loved and held dear by everyone else and I know longer matter to my intimate objects. I am just a folded in piece of background and I am forced to go searching again for something new. Then I find myself in a big black cornfield looking at each piece of corn to see if it's something that no one else has seen.
And the weirdest part is I haven't remembered dreams since I was in Korea. It's been over the past few weeks that I have been having dreams again. Unfortunately these dreams are awful and they wake me up. I don't think I can remember more than a handful of good dreams in my entire life.
