Planes, Trains, and Impotent Wills
I mean by this point, when it comes to America, I just choose ignorance until I can be inspired to fight for a cause. It is the above average intelligent who usually believe in propaganda (where did I read that?). And it is them who are more likely to follow the revolution and dream apple plum thoughts about change. I don't really know what to believe about my country anymore.
I wish someone would just send me to war. I'd rather go kill nameless little brown people, that i've been told to hate, on the other side of the world as opposed to watching others do it and never really knowing anything. I'd rather be the one that holds the whip than one that is protected by the them.
I watched those debates and I watched stupid documentaries and read really radical websites and it all just confuses me. It all makes me feel awful. It makes me feel impotent with rage. It's as though someone were making you watch a video of your mother being tortured and all you had to do was some simple physical task to set her free but you find that you are a paraplegic. It feels like that.
I feel sick when I think about what I don't know and about how little control I have over anything other than the TV channel I choose to watch, the music I listen to or the books that I read. Hell, even the food I eat is contaminated. Even the places I want to travel to have me tracked and tagged while I move. I can only have freedom through meaningless escapes. This is making me feel nauseous just talking about it.
This is sort of interesting though -
http://www.freedomunderground.org/memoryhole/pentagon.php#Main. It's a short flash presentation about the plane that was never found at the Pentagon. The music it's set to is unnecessary but the info is rather unsettling.
Can't you just feel a revolution coming? Can't you just feel some sort of awful pain and bloodshed against America coming from within? I can. It's rather depressing to know that I fear my own Government more than I do anything else in the world. But I guess that was the whole point.
