Awwww we're friends
It was bound to happen. Jas and I make better friends than lovers. But we talked all day and even shared a joke and some cute memories and agreed that we probably won't see each other ever again but thanks to the Internet we can still be communicable, which is nice. I love the idea of her being around because she is pure drama and everyone needs that one crazy friend. Everyone needs that one crazy girl that flips out at everything and always has advice for you. Especially when she knows you intimitally she can be persuasuve. The only thing that worries me about this break up is that Jas knows things about me...and man if I cross the line...she'll use that info as bullets. Bullets of pain...hmm...I trust her though...
Anyway...today was a pretty good day. I no longer have to carry the burden of frustration and jealousy around with me that came from being with her. And she got to return to the man she loves. I mean...it's not ideal...for me anyway...but I care about Jas...and it's nice to know that she's smiling and I actually feel pretty shitty but in a good way. In a relief way...like...my crippled uncle is finally dead way. Guilty about the feeling, remorseful...but relieved.
