Easing Yourself Down From a Cliff of Expectations
Trying to get close to someone who won't let you is a tough rope to tip toe. You don't want to open yourself too much in fear of humiliation and at the same time you don't want to be cold because you know that being vulnerable is part of caring for someone. There is a bridge that you can't cross physically. There is only an olive branch that you can hang over the cliff in hopes that they will touch it and want to pull themselves up.
You feel sad but you feel strong at the same time because that's your defense mechanism. It's as though you were left in the desert and you come to the realization that it's you against nature and against self. You fall into deliverance from pain and beg for solice in your own head. You start to realize your mistakes and capitalize on your strengths. It's a peaceful lonely place to be unwanted and yet alive.