All I had when I woke up was your photo. I must have been holding it when I went to bed. The holidays are alwayd hard when you're alone and all you want is to not be. The holidays make life seem so empty.
Your name came up at dinner. I said that you were ok. That fact I don't know.
I know that in this photo you were happy. I know that in my mind you are still that beautiful. I know that in my heart there is a hole that still needs to be filled. I know that in my soul there isn't anything I wouldn't give to watch you sleep again. There is nothing I wouldn't sacrifice to hear your voice or make you smile.
I lost my best friend 4 years ago. I lost my peace. I have this photo and it gets me through. It let's me know there was a time that we were happy. It lets me know that there was a time I was whole and that I too was smiling.
All I want for Christmas is to know that you are smiling the same way you were in this photo. You were smiling with your head cocked to the side and your tongue out. I had made you laugh. I can do it again. I promise I can.