Tunes
What I think about when I listen to the following songs that I love:
Jesus the Mexican Boy: Iron and Wine - I think about a dirty young man. Not dirty as in nasty but dirty as in his face hasn't been washed. I think of him picking up a little boy and putting him in the back of his truck as they drive off down the road. The little boy is smiling as big as can be. He is smiling and the singer is driving mouthing the words to this song.
Hallelujah: Rufus Wainwright - I think of making love in the morning and wanting to just hold someone as I kiss down the side of their rib cage. I want to cry in their arms as I look into them. I think about not singing this song but letting the song sing us. I wish there was someone next to me to hold my hand and put their head on my shoulder. I want to dance to this song as it starts and then kiss very slowly but not the kind of kissing that leads to sex. The kind of kissing that preaches sex. The kind of kissing that lets you know that what you have is real and not tainted by anything.
Such Great Heights: The Postal Service - I imagine myself in an apartment dancing before a mirror. Gay right? Who cares and fuck you because if it wasn't for people like me you wouldn't even know that this song existed and if it wasn't for Doug I wouldn't have known. Anyway - I think about DC for some reason and I think about someone standing in the front of a bus driving down the road and he's singing to himself as he looks out the window at what is in front of him.
Let's Talk about Spaceships: Say Hi to Your Mom - I think about all the awkward conversation that I have had with girls. I think about how I just want love and how that love doesn't exist unless we can both learn to just shut the fuck up and watch CNN while enjoying facial expressions and the way our toe nails look. This song reminds that it's ok to be still and it's ok to look at the stars and not have to worry because I'm 25 and breathing and I have a good 10 years left before it all becomes dangerous.
Between the Bars: Elliott Smith - I think about leaving Turners at 3 am and standing in the street lighting a cigarette. I pull my coat tight to my neck and take a serious inhale as I see you cross the street in front of me. I see you and I don't look anywhere but down. I shake my head and walk up the street. You put your car in park and come up to give me a kiss on the cheek and say "Thank You" and then go back to your car without anything else.
The Lengths: The Black Keys - I think about sitting in my room and smoking cigarettes with my feet up on my desk. I think about how many mistakes I have made and how they don't matter anymore because I never lied about me. I never lied about my feelings. I never shortchanged any one. I have used people. I have lied. But if you are smart and you understand what honesty is you know that when it comes from me it comes with no apologies and all the time like a river.
Everybody's Gotta Learn Sometime : Beck - I think about Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind and my meat sauce. I think about how I had shot to win someone over that I loved and blew it because I couldn't get over my own righteousness that love is love and anything less or traded or borrowed is just bullshit. Well it's not like that and love, for a man, is making a person know exactly where you stand and fighting for that person. Because like it or not, all girls want someone to fight for them. They want someone to lay down their life for them and if you can't even win them over on a date than you have little chance of winning them over in life. I learned from that.
The Beer : Kimya Dawson - I picture Kimya standing in a living room singing this song. I picture myself singing along with her and I love everything about it as we laugh and giggle the entire way through the song. I fall in love with her and the song and the house and the floor and the taste in my mouth because everything is jsut perfect. Everything about singing this song with her would be perfect because I know every word and it's fast and it's poignant and it's funny.
