Issues Averted World Restored
Whew - that was a close one. I had Fest preceed me by 10 minutes. I had John and Swizzle at Mad Beaver looking around. I had said 'No Mas' when Farah picked me up from the airport. I had said 'NO MAS'. But alas, this is my town. And these are my days. So there wasn't much keeping me from my bar on a Friday.
I walked into our local bar with an apology, a bowed head, and a desire to buy a lot of people a lot of drinks. I explained that I wouldn't fight again but couldn't really promise anything because, well, I really can't. I have a short little fuse and I kind of enjoy the idea of fighting half-a-fags. I'd be lying if I said my head wasn't on a little bit of a swivle. I'd be lying that if I said I wasn't looking for a fight for about 20 minutes. But then I started simply not caring. I hadn't really been able to not care for a while. But all of the sudden I just let go and it was good.
I remember looking up at the 20 people that were with me and saying, "Nice. Nice. Hey, Yana, Do me a favor and buy them all a drink". All was sort of right with the world but I swear all I wanted to do was sleep. But, the last time I looked I was on the phone at 5 A.M. this mornig and it's now 11:12. We have a party to go to in a little over 3 hours and there are still people sleeping down stairs. I may claim to not enjoy my life sometimes. But I swear, that wasn't evident last night. And I'll take the idea of smiles and stories over the idea of laundry and Monopoly night.
New Orleans is great! Girls that turn me on are awesome! Cool guys with lots of money are always fun to hang out with! But damnit...there's nothing like home with my friends. Nothing.
Now, it's about 55 degrees. I'm on my roofdeck. I'm enjoying a Gatorade and a bag of pecans (I totally threw away all the healthy parts) so nicely left as a present from Charles. I'm looking out over my city and I'm thinking, "It's time to make moves. It's getting time to up the game. Last night was a good start in some strange way but it wasn't enough. I want a whole lot more."