I traveled...
...around the world in hopes of Zen.
I found some pot.
I found some whores.
I saw beatings
My country went to war.
I lost my nerve yet -
I found my spine.
I coveted unearned wealth
And read to sleep divine.
I went to the temples
And I slept with the monks.
I laughed with the liars
And I cried with the drunks.
I trained at the circus...
The circus of life.
I questioned my morals
And slept with your wife.
I walked on burning coals
in the sands of Phuket.
I swallowed clean water
From hands unmet.
I trampled on lovers
And slayed hearts in their path
I watched as my ruthless friends
Stared and laughed.
I took advantage of all that I could
Rarely in purity
And in absence of good.
I traded my father
For a time traded lie
I watched as my mother
Continued to die.
I called at their names
In the dark with a bottle
I scrawled on the walls
As a mother would coddle.
I knew all the words
To all the worst songs
I knew all the rights
But did all the wrongs.
I tried my hand at luck
And found there was none
I wondered of faces
In masks not undone.
I threw to the wind
My precious tired youth
I took no one's word
But admitted in truth
That I was a liar
A fraud and thief
I made people believe in
The tree for the leaf.
In the time of your birth
The stars intertwined.
And now that you're almost here
I can rest in my own time.
