It was quite the long day at the office. We're doing something interesting here. If you didn't know - your Daddy makes his living on the internet. You may be asking - "well... now that's quite the predicament (actually I hope you are using words like predicament) you seem to be an open book on here and everything else - aren't you scared that people will judge you based on what you put online?" Well - my answer to that is that I refuse to live in fear of any other man. I am who I am. I'm not slandering anyone, spreading hate, or saying anything here that I wouldn't say out loud. So... if I am to be crucified for my words... I'd rather it be for using them than for lack of them.
Anyway - where did we leave off yesterday? Ahh yes - you were just born and we were in a room together.
Ya know what? We'll get to the rest of that story tomorrow. Right now I want to tell you about your Momma.
Interesting creature your Mother. As of right now, we actually had an argument last night, which is dampening the mood around the house. And - the crazy part - and the good part - is when we argue we just tend to ignore each other. Which could be worse or better than most - but that's about what we do these days. Why do I bring up an argument... well I'm gonna tell you about your mother and I didn't want you to think that I was doing it because of some glorious shining moment in my life or the after glow of something spectacular. I wanted to write about how much I love her - even though - we have our problems and to let you know how much she loves you. I don't think she reads these so... I wanted to give some Mommy perspective for you.
Your mother and I don't have any amazing love tale like you might find in the movies. Our story is actually built more on frustration, fortitude, waiting, and bad decisions than it is on anything else. We made some mistakes - well I made some mistakes more so than her - before we were ever actually together making each other happy.
We both found each other and created a world of laughter through many years and in some of those years we weren't even a couple. But... she never ceased to be in my life. And it was all for the best.
Ya see... there are many reasons I love your Mother. The first is that she makes me feel like a person. She makes me feel like the person I want to be. I don't have to be anything more or less when I'm with her. She has an easy beauty to her that is most evident when she's being funny or sarcastic. That's when she really shines. She is also one of the only women on Earth that can make me laugh. And you'll find that I don't laugh too often - although I hear it's good for you. But your Mother's wit and charm are much like mine if not superior on many levels. At least that's what she thinks our friends would say. She'll probably tell you that Daddy is kind of a slob and a bit annoying. She means it in her own way to be loving.
But - my affections for your Mother is not the only reason why I'm writing to you. I wanted to tell you about how she blossomed even more as a person once you were born. She is a completely new kind of beautiful now. She is a Mother and a wonderful one at that.
Ya know... Your Mother could leave a half eaten sandwich on the edge of the couch with a half drunk glass of juice with 3 pairs of shoes and a sweater that she just took off in the same area. And then she would leave and let that all sit there. But... if you had so much as a hair out of place on your head I've seen her run up stairs - and your Mother doesn't run anywhere - to make sure that hair was back in it's proper place. Other than my own Mother - I've never been so close to that kind of love. It's the love only a Mother can have for her child. And I think she has it especially because it's you. Believe it or not - you currently have a personality and it's one that is quite lovable. And it vibes with Mommies - you're funny, you're adorable, and you're shy and a bit of a ham at the same time. I think you might be the perfect kind of love for Mommy. And I think she needs you as much as you need her.
She's a wonderful person, your Mother. She loves you. I love her. And I most definitely love you as well.