Day 8
To my Dad on his last birthday -
I can't imagine it's not your last birthday. Seeing you withing the last year when you spring upon me at my house was jarring to say the least. It caused a flourish of emotion - much of it I am ashamed of. But I buried you a long time ago. You had every chance to be a part of my life - contribute, care, anything... and you took no advantage of that.
However, I regret everything that has happened over the last 10 years. I could have been a bigger and better son. I could have forgiven quicker and been stronger. Instead I chose self-preservation. And I'll regret that for the rest of my life. You do need to understand that it would have not been easy either way. Life is hard - and having such a selfish self destructive person in my life would have / could have been catastrophic.
I'll try to write more later. This is just to get started.
Day 4
I have been wanting to get back to writing more often for some time now. No time like the present - so for a while we're going to feel out our rhythm for writing and go stream of consciousness
I like to write in the morning. I'm 40 now and the evenings seem to come faster and my body more tired.
Well - in case youre wondering the "Day 4" title is because we are currently in the middle of a Pandemic. It is known as the Cornona Virus or COVID-19 - or as our horrible President calls it "The CHinese Virus".
I have received information from friends that insinuate we could be quarantined for as much as 18 months. That gives us a lot of time to develop other skills. Today is the start of getting to know my brain again - well - at least in this way.
More to come -
