I see other people
Do you remember the movie 6th sense? If so, you remember the line “I see dead people.”
I’m getting close to unplugging from social media because all I see are people having fun. Being around friends. I see them going to events and places. I don’t talk to anyone I know from 10 years ago. Well not anyone but 98% of them.
I’m pretty sure that makes me sad because I’m writing about it. But I’m also pretty sure I have to reconcile the idea that I’m not stupid. I don’t see the upside in many things. I don’t see the ritual for more than it is -
Anyway - I see a shrink this week. Talking to Hannah helps. Talking to Eric helps. Talking to Jedd and jer helps. I’m hoping the shrink will help be a bit more concise and actionable around the fact that I’m struggling - I’m acutely aware of my struggle and I just can’t shake out of it - exercise, no alcohol, money - nothing shakes it.
