Don't Take it Personal
Listen
I write these things for me
I write these things for my own window
My own world
My own cathartic moment of lens
So don't take it personal - I'm not worth that. (prelude over)
I have a hard time looking at myself
I have confidence with who I am
I can feel that in my feet
And in my head.
I don't fear much - I do fear
though
My own reflection.
Superficially - no one has ever called me handsome - or hot - barely cute.
And that's ok - but that wears on you psychologically over the years.
Like it or not - that's a fact. I don't care who you are.
Internally - no one that I have known for a long time thinks I'm a good person.
They find me tolerable, or with means, or oddly crazy at best.
They know something in me is broken.
They know I lie.
They know I'm shallow.
They know I'm mean.
They know I'm not as smart as I think I am.
And that's on me. I never got to be
The person I always wanted to be
Mostly because it was too hard
And not enough fun
And it seemed boring.
But all the people and mirrors I've broke along the way.
Tell a story that I do take personal - but you shouldn't.
Sometimes - the hero goes away even in his own story.
