Head space
I don't even know how to control my own headspace anymore. All I do is try to get through the day - as best I can. My mind is slipping back towards the ideas I don't like. I have very little control over what I can and can't do or what I can and can't think right now. I have to focus on getting healthy and strong again. I can't get distracted with negativity - I just don't have any room for it in my life. Things are already so stressful that - I have to block all of it out and focus on getting through the day and then on the next day getting stronger and healthier and better.
Don't look for a break. Don't look for anyone to care. Don't worry about anything but your kids. You have to be strong. Because you're a piece of shit. Get up. Move.
