Old Friends
Well - I’m pretty sure they’re mostly gone now. There’s a few that I still stay in contact with. But - after Covid and after wells and just geography - it’s safe to say there will never be another chili cook off. There will never be another friends kids birthday party and there will not be as many old friends anymore.
That’s what happens when you’re miserable and lazy - nobody wants to be around you and you don’t want to care if they do or don’t after a very short time.
It’s ok. I’ve always kinda been like this. I don’t need as many old friends any more - I’m not anyone they know anyway. Time to start again or just move on.
I mean if you think about it you’re only really friends with people because out of the limited proximity you choose a handful of people that you have things in common with when you’re still living in the land of abundant prime numbers as ages. I wish I didn’t feel sad about it - I do a little - I do more so because I can’t fix it. And I don’t want to. I just don’t care.
I’m running out of room most days.
I’m losing a little now. I don’t like it.
