Day 36
I am thankful for a trait today. What other people do and decide to do doesn’t hurt or phase me. How they feel about me hurts me - I hate when people are mad at me. But their decisions I can always justify. You can’t control another person or wish them to do something because you want it - people are going to do what people will want or need to do without a ton of thought for you. It’s human nature. It comes in a spectrum but it’s there and the pain that I see people feel by trying to control someone is one of the most painful emotions I’ve been privy to.
Your life is not theirs - it’s great if those lives are in harmony but if they’re not you have to let go and you have to do it with a smile and a thought of “it wasn’t meant to be”
It’s calming to let go of that pain. It’s balancing to separate yourself and give yourself over to that idea. It’s as close to freedom as my mind gets sometimes and I need to figure out how to unlock it elsewhere.
