Saturday, January 18, 2025
2025 books update
Meditations - Marcus Aurelius - pretty basic philosophies but it allows you to slow down and take in what true airstocracy looks like. Easy read - I’m sure if you studied it extensively you would draw more out.
Joan Didion - the year of magical thinking. - I liked learning about her more than her book I will admit. But she is a beautiful writer and I look forward to reading more of her.
Notes on the making of apocalypse now - Eleanor Coppola
- it was ok - makes FFC into a spoiled little fop. Good context though and some new tidbits.
Coppola’s Monster Film - Steven travers - see above - also good tidbits - Hollywood sucks - don’t read about it
Monday, January 13, 2025
2025 books
Joan Didion - the year of magical thinking. - I liked learning about her more than her book I will admit. But she is a beautiful writer and I look forward to reading more of her.
Notes on the making of apocalypse now - Eleanor Coppola
- it was ok - makes FFC into a spoiled little fop. Good context though and some new tidbits.
Coppola’s Monster Film - Steven travers - see above - also good tidbits - Hollywood sucks - don’t read about it
Sunday, January 12, 2025
Mornings
More precious than evenings
Are the mornings I get to spend
No weight
No pain
Not yet
Planning what may be.
All attentive to the day
Of possibility.
Evening and night
Now lend themselves
To intimate
Moments of capture
Wrapped with times
No longer wanting
Distraction,
I fucking see you - getting old.
Friday, January 10, 2025
Want From HN
Sat to the east
Waiting on John’s call
Pouted to the west
In an attempt to
Garner the ice cream girl’s eyes
Downed
Drowned
When to take the sparkle
To the voice
That cleans the
Soul to those
I’ll never know.
Never know.
I can’t live
If there is no God
I can’t sleep where
There is no peace.
Relationship with poison
In self destruction
Will end the way
It ends
In the time it takes
To mend
We can look at the ways
Life will begin
HN
Thursday, January 09, 2025
Things I want
Love without a…
Fun without an…
Smiles without a…
Peace without a….
I had that once. I think. I can have it again. I know. I’m ready for it mentally. The great thing about getting older is you put your bullshit aside and say “I’m sorry” and “I understand” because at the end of the day the other person will get there if you hold your arms open like a grandparent saying “I love you… come to me”
Tuesday, January 07, 2025
That time
The dog rested
On your arm
While you waited
For reprieve
You found peace
And a smile
Stay there
Chip
A small bowl of
Glistened grapes
Sit waiting
For the moment
You need something
Sweet
But didn’t think
About
Until you
Pushed
Monday, January 06, 2025
Trust
What is trust
Is it the sleep
Is it the look
No
Its the longing
It’s the understanding
Of what you want
And what you can tolerate
Big
Small
All measured but
The longing
And desire
Win out
