Monday, June 23, 2025
Failed
Everyone
Everything
Save for something
That was nothing
In the eye of envy
Committed
To all
In the space
Of none
Became mine
With absence
Of all
That
Is time
Thursday, June 19, 2025
Getting older
One of the things that frightens me most about the world is that the old are getting dumber with every generation / more easily cowed.
And in our youth we are less susceptible to fraud and fake information and people.
The older we get the more scared we get and the more scared we get the worse decisions we make.
Thursday, May 22, 2025
Mom
I just had the warmest thought about my mom.
She always tried to make everything beautiful. She still does.
Rose bushes next to our crappy little house and hedges and a fence - she kept the house as clean as could be working tirelessly Friday night after a full day of work. Finding joy in it - resentful hard work sometimes… but joy in trying to provide something beautiful. It’s what kept her going her whole life and it’s something I love about her.
My mother is a sturdy caring person to me. I think the best parts of me - are from her.
Saturday, May 17, 2025
Conclusion
I’ve spent countless
Shadow casted
Up from the floor
Into the skin
Right with a halo
Form with tiger aggression
Moments -
Contemplating
Where I lost or gained
The capacity to
Have one
Wednesday, April 02, 2025
Personality
I think I need to understand that I’m a bit stupid. I’m not stupid mentally - I’m stupid socially. I’m a walking klutz. I offend people. I’m incapable of being gracious or excited without being either crude or arrogant.
I hope I can remember that / professionally this almost works. I have some talent or experience. I know how to survive. In social places I need to remember to be quiet. Just shut up. Learn to be pleasant and complimentary instead of an attention whore who thinks he’s smarter than everyone else and also annoyingly insecure about not being liked.
Be a man. Grow the fuck up.
I also never own up to anything. I’m always making excuses and lying about things that I don’t need to lie about - I’m also lying to myself all the time.
I have a lot of work to do.
Lying eyes
… by the eagles must be the worst song ever when you actually live the lyrics.
Sunday, March 02, 2025
Good man
Even with this
… not good.
Not worthy.
Your intentions
Quiet
Your actions
Consistent
Your life
Small and big at the same time
You’re not this
It’s not too late
Shrink
Humble
Even in this
Humble
Even in this
More quiet
Simpler
Humble
Sunday, February 23, 2025
Davos
Rich people who do horrible things can never really be in love that’s why they need paid and enslaved sex systems
